Suicide Note

 I wrote this to say good bye to anyone who cared to read it.  A furry friend saved me that day.  I keep it because it shows 

how I truly feel.  It shows how deep the hurt goes.

I fought for a flag and what it stood for

I came back home a hero

But now I need that flag

And to them I’m a zero

I gave my life years ago

But my body didn’t know to lay down and die

The torment in my life

Makes me mad, sad, scared and makes me cry

There are demons inside me now

And I fight them every way I know how

With each battle I think I win

A new battle inside will begin

Im tired of all the fighting

The meds, the feelings and the hiding

I cant let them win and take control

But slowly I fall into that hole

I can see now they will never quit

So I’ll lash out with one final hit

One more move to kill them all

And yes I know my body will fall

Dont feel bad

There is nothing you could do

Don’t get mad

I’ve thought this through

I died long ago

Your love has been my life support

But im tired now

And can not defend the fort

So love me now

Like you showed me how.

Give me one last hug

And let me pull the plug.